♥

Tired!

But,
I had done my performance,
Not too bad.
Heehee.

Thanks God for leading every step of us.
♥

Hi, Bye.

I met lotsa people in these twenty years.
Some of them stay while most of them left.

I know it's a routine.
So I'm not gonna take it too hard.

Guys,
I know you'll stay if you're meant to stay.
So if you really feel like leaving,
Then just go.

It's not that I don't appreciate you.
But,
I know you're unworthy for keeping anymore when you're thinking about leaving.

It's gonna be hard for me I know.
But,
Wheels keep spinning.
New pepole gonna show up.
I won't be down for too long.

Updating

Well,
Someone asked me why didn't I update my blog for so long.
Hahaha.
Paiseh har bro,
I really don't know what to update. Haha.

Life's getting busy these few weeks.
Practices, assignments, meetings.

So,
I'm fine.
Real fine.
But I still miss home very much.

That's the only place make me feel comfortable enough.
Whenever they're around,
They make me feel secure.

Gonna work hard for these three years.
And,
Bring them back some results.
❤

I'm back.

Well,
I know I was not in good mood last few weeks.
Everything seems so miserable to me last few weeks.
Things that cheered me don't cheer me anymore.
What I can do I to keep myself praying.

And,
God had done his works and I can feel it.
Maybe people appear to cheer me up,
Hints were send while I'm studying the bible,
Motivating quotes on Facebook seems to be shown up more frequently,
Motivating videos on how a Chritian mother raises up her blind child.
And I got to realised that how lucky am I to be here, blogging. LOL.

I'm back people.
With the smile.
Remember to slap me hard in my face whenever I'm down again.
Haha.

:(

In the class now.

Well,
I'm down again.
Something's really wrong with me and I know that.
But I really don't know how to get over these.

So,
I promised my friends to go AS with them for dinner.
But,
I ffk them just now.
I know he's not feeling well.
Yet,
I really don't feel like going.

I'm really sorry.
But I know if I'm going with this kind of mood I'm gonna ruin the whole dinner.

I don't know what's wrong.
Maybe I'm the one who's thinking too much.
But seriously I can feel that she don't like me.
I thought things changed.
And I thought we gonna get closer this sem.
But the fact is she's still as harsh as how she used to be.
She still likes to objects me.
She still refuses hanging with my friends.
She still likes to rejects me.
She still like to slander me.
Anyway,
I still holding a slightly faith on her that the things others told me is not true.
I really don't wish to get back stapped by her.

I prayed and prayed.
And things seems better, I thought.
But,
I think I've to wait longer for God's works.

:(

Finally back in my room.
Had five classes, meeting, jogging and dinner.
And,
Vomited!!!!

Just finished talking with mom, dad and sis.
I really miss them so much.  ♥

Wrong!

Went to CGCC for cell group today.

I had my first hymns leading service in the church today.
I thought I can handle it.
But,
The fact is I'm so freaking nervous.
I can't even remember the lyrics and the rhythm of the songs!
Thing got worse when I heard my shaking voice surrounding the whole church.
And it sounds so wrong!
It's really ridiculous. Haha.

Anyway,
I had done it.
And I know things gonna be better next time.
:D

Thanks

Woke up and realised there're 66 new voicemails in my wechat by one person.
I was like,
Damn! Kena spam again.
Hahaha.

Anyway,
Mr. Goo Chin Heng,
You're really talented.
In talking alone.
Even though I didn't respond.
But you manage to send me 66 voicemails all by yourself.
WOW!
Haha.

I was spammed.
But, seriously I wanna thank you.
For all the prayers and those hymns.

I'm not gonna down for long.
At least I'm OK now.
Don't worry about me.

I know and thanks a lot for keep reminding me,
Our Father is always there.
Protecting us,
Arranging us the best arrangements.

Every fall make us stronger.
I'm gonna learn from mistakes.
I'm gonna be leading.
I'm gonna be supernatural! Haha.

Again,
Thanks.  :)

Changed.

So,
I'm back again.

Looking back to the pass,
I realised I changed quite a lot.
Not to be better,
But worse.

I was so damn cheerful last time.
And I find out my mood got affected very easily these months.
I got down when I got accidentally ignored.
I got down when the food that I wanna eat sold out.
I got down when the sun is too hot for me.
I got down when I have not enough sleep.
I got down for no reason sometimes.

I was thinking what's fucking going on?
What's fucking wrong?
I changed myself into an antisocial person.
After I had loss some of my friends.
I refused to make new friends.
I refused to share.
Even blogging which was part of my life seems not much important to me now.
I don't even write my dairy everyday like how I used to be.

C'mon.
I said I wanna change.
Change back to how I used to be.
But things seems kinda tough for me now..

:D

It's Tuesday!
But I'm so busy since morning till now.
This is not how a holiday should be. :(

Started to get busy.
Enactus, assignments, revisions, meetings, church services.

But,
I kinda enjoy it.
At least my mind can stop wondering and thinking for bad stuffs while I'm busy.

Time to get back to works.
Bye readers.

I know I've turned lazy and blog lesser these few months.
Haha.
I'll be back. :D