Changed.

So,
I'm back again.

Looking back to the pass,
I realised I changed quite a lot.
Not to be better,
But worse.

I was so damn cheerful last time.
And I find out my mood got affected very easily these months.
I got down when I got accidentally ignored.
I got down when the food that I wanna eat sold out.
I got down when the sun is too hot for me.
I got down when I have not enough sleep.
I got down for no reason sometimes.

I was thinking what's fucking going on?
What's fucking wrong?
I changed myself into an antisocial person.
After I had loss some of my friends.
I refused to make new friends.
I refused to share.
Even blogging which was part of my life seems not much important to me now.
I don't even write my dairy everyday like how I used to be.

C'mon.
I said I wanna change.
Change back to how I used to be.
But things seems kinda tough for me now..