Faith

5201314.

It's a very special date.

Before this,
I thought I'm not gonna lost my faith in love.
No matter what happen.

Even though I was hurt before.
I lost my faith.
In that person,
But not love.
Love is the most wonderful feeling created by God.
I'm always looking forward for a eternal love that last really long.

I thought I had found it before I came into UUM.
I thought I found my life partner.
We are so confidence,
We think nothing can separate us,
Including distance.
But,
I realized thing's not as simple as we thought.

I really don't wanna lost my faith in love.
I told myself,
I shouldn't make the judgement referring to one or two person who passed by in my life.
Maybe things work out some  time?
Maybe I should be optimistic as I was.
Yet,
I couldn't find my confidence back like what I had last time.

I sheltered myself.
From being hurt again.
In my subconscious.
And
I realized this after I had a talk with yi jun.
I never know I could change so much because of some one.
Im afraid of getting hurt again.
I'm afraid of losing myself again.

However,
I prayed.
I know God is listening to my prayer.
And I believe something's gonna happen on me.
Yea God.
I'm looking forward for the miracle.
I need courage and confident in me,
To be in love again.